UPDATE: NOTHING HAPPENED!

 After some days of sleeping and mindlessly scrolling through Instagram, I am back to looking for a job—a remote one, for sure, or so I guess. Even when I am focusing on my dream, my mind still lingers around the money aspect. Very soon, the savings will end, and I need to refill them somehow.

When I am about to click on the APPLY NOW button, my fingers shiver, and my mind shouts- NO. I am trying to be positive and hope not to turn completely insane in this process of figuring.

In my head, I just want to sit and scream... Deva re... (Oh God). This is an easy way to include God and push him to create a path, just for me. I am a believer, but is it fair to just dream and pray for some magic?

Well, I can do hard work, but where to do the hard work?

One thing, I can say for sure now is whenever I am involved in any kind of corporate job, I feel I am living less, I feel less alive, and there is a hole in my stomach, getting bigger and bigger when I am working. As soon as I leave the job, the hole starts healing.

Anyway, I will need to work in a corporate job 'kyuki paise kahase aayenge' (Where will the money come from) and hope the hole doesn't tear me apart before I leave and finally find my path. 


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